Calling on God

I need some direction with my life. I guess with OUR lives. I want God to lead me somewhere where I can be of some impact. I just feel that I'm trying to do my best with making friendships and trying to be apart of a group at church, but I don't feel like I'm getting anywhere. I need to be more commited to Him so that I can see clearer on the plan He has for me and my family.
It's snowing right now and me and the babies have a cold again. I'm just sitting here thinking that I want God to use me as a tool to get His word out and His love. I want to do more. I'm trying to do the best I can having two babies at my side, because God knows that limits me.

I dream to adopt a child or children in years to come. I hope God speaks to me when this time comes, IF this is what is intended for us.

Jason and I go in and out of stages with our relationship with God. We were on a good track with Him, going to church often, praying, just keeping Him in our thoughts throughout the day... but now we are in a slump where we haven't gone to church in a while. Part of it has to do with the cold. Yes it is cold, but it's not just that. It's prepping the babies for the cold, gearing up all their food/snacks/sippy cups, etc. So, I guess we have been lazy. I've stopped reading my marriage-advice type books. Guess a messy house always keeps me busy these days.
(yes I still have time to write a blog)

Does anyone actually read this anyway? Well, if not, at least I can get my thoughts out.

I guess what I'm trying to say is I yearn for a closer relationship with God. I want to get back there.